Happy Teacher's Day

“The test of a good teacher is not how many questions he can ask his pupils that they will answer readily, but how many questions he inspires them to ask him which he finds it hard to answer”

Alice Wellington Rollins

Happy Mother's Day

I'm already 24 years old last 17th January. To be true. last 24 years i was never celebrating Mother's day for the one and only beloved mom i have, Mrs. Nafisah A. Rahman. It is not that i didn't love her but it was just not a culture in my family, the same goes to my other siblings.

But yes, better late then never. I realized that i should start it. At least just for myself, next time may will be with others. I should lead this celebration by putting it in the family yearly schedule. Indeed, i should.

On the 9th May, after i was completing my dusk prayer in my manly room, and so do mom separately, i went to her room. She is still in the hijab for praying. As usual, with her warming n relaxing face expression, she was sitting there on the sajadah.

I walk closely to her, and spontaneously said, "I have a present for you."

No reaction from her. I sat down in front and grab both of her hands, kissed them. "Happy mother's day." i kinda whispering that line.

My blossomed kiss then moved to her cheeks and forehead. Continuously then, i hugged her and saying the four magic words, "I love you mom." Then i opened the case, separating the gold ring from it and passed it to mom.(I'm so worried that it might not fit any of her fingers :p)I was wrong.It definitely fit her middle finger.

"Thank you very much" she replied with teary eyes.

I felt so blessed.

not my expertise

I went to town this afternoon, looking for gold bracelet for my lovely mom. This is so girlish business and not even my expertise (at least not yet until my wedding day). With the budget around RM 200++, I thought i could buy one for her for this upcoming Mother's day. Apparently, i was wrong.

No such gold bracelet around that price but gold ring, yes of course. Then i bought one with the price RM250.00.This is nothing compared to her precious loves towards me all this while.

I love U mom like no one ever did!!!

3rd day of fasting

This might sound hypocrite yet unbrave. To be true, I'm not fasting as what Muslim does during Ramadhan.Haha. I'm fasting from letting the smokes fulfill my lungs as i am now at my home, wasting by semester break. Doing my semester routine is just so amazing as i got so-called supporting and understanding mom. What ever i do, there would not be any argument on it.

Semester break means sleep, eat and watching tv. (the most thing i love to do)

Unfortunate, as there is no one in my family knows that im a smoker(quite heavy), i could not smoke freely at home. Yes, i intendedly not to let they know my true colour at the campus.haha.

Three days at home and not even one ciggarete be in between my lips. I could not bare to let it constantly happen. This evening, Pantai Batu Buruk (7 minutes from home) will be the right place TO break this fasting. :)

i shouldn't be jealous

Yes, i shouldn't. It was over between me and my TPP. I saw a picture of TPP and him. The one that TPP used to know and build a relationship b4 me. Yes, b4 my existence in TPP's life. Yet, some jealousy is still playing with my emotion but as time goes around, it'll gone.

I was unlucky to know TPP as the first one. TPP already with someone when we intimately know each other. But no, i never regret to be with TPP without being realized by his 1st boyfriend. Was and still TPP's boyfriend. So, i may say that we were having an affair. This is so not right. Besides, TPP's boyfriend is also a fren of mine. I felt like i was so good to be a backstabber.

That's why. On my second thought, after a semester having an affair with TPP. I decided to make an end. Enough said. This is for our own good and happiness we were expecting to have in the future. Some may said that im a looser as the well-known quote stated, "best man win" but I dont give a damn. There are lots of angel out there waiting for me, and i'll be there for my better life. New start and fresh beginning! I'm coming my darling..

Brother 2

As my little brother is living with his own attitude towards his life, the same goes to everybody. It's ok if your attitude is such in a manner way. But if isn't, how is it going to affect your life and others around you? The thing that we should think wisely.

And i felt like i want to beg my eldest brother to change his attitude as well.*SIGH*

Brother

I'm the seventh in my family. I was gifted with eight lovely siblings. Life seems to be perfect for me. I have two sisters, four big brothers and one little brother. My second raya day was spoiled by the only little brother i have. The bike i often used to move met with an accident. Yes, it's not mine but i still affected from what happened as there are some damages on it. I yelled at him like no one in my family ever did.(nearly to slap his face,damn).

It is not really about the bike. It is more about my expression towards his behavior. Yes, im not qualified to be in the 'great brother' category but i still love him. My angriness is just the way to show my concern on what he did recently. It kind of 'three in one' respond. They are:

1. He tends to used my mother's handphone which is a gift from me (i bought it using my own money :p)
2. He was obviously preoccupied with his love thingy though he gonna take SPM this year. (call and text his GF 25 hours per day. Yes that girl kinda cute but i don give a damn)
3. The bike, of course. I stuck at home as i don't have driving license, my two sisters wont let me drive their cars. double damn. I was going nowhere during the raya.

Yet, i still love him. From the day he met with accident, we don't even having any conversation until now. I believe i might be overreacted on what was happened. I try not to repeat that again. I kinda hate him, but yes, i still love him.